My first patient was an elderly woman on a call to a nursing home.
I was on my EMT internship. I was incredibly excited. I was terribly nervous.
She had fallen in her room, and was able to neither get up nor remember the fall. Despite being in a room full of other EMTs and paramedics, who acted as both buffer and counsel, I knew that she was my patient,and I knew that, for the first, and hopefully not the last time, I was responsible for the health and safety of another.I didn’t feel ready. I didn’t feel qualified in the slightest. Nothing I could have possibly learned in textbooks or in lectures or in discussions with mentors could have prepared me for that humbling moment of responsibility, for that realization that she was trusting absolutely in my education and knowledge to determine her well-being.
While the foundation of my interest in EMS was simple curiosity, upon it was built a sense of responsibility that I can not imagine giving up. Long before this, I began playing music. I started teaching myself piano at the age of thirteen, and my interests quickly spread to guitar and bass as well. I would practice for hours a day, enabled by homeschooling and stubbornness, cross-legged next to a tiny amplifier only I could hear out of until every tone, every note, rang out clear and beautiful and perfect.
Through this, I learned the incredible power of perseverance, and from that came the ability to grow my curiosities into self-motivation. From playing music, I cultivated my ability to turn diligence into competence. In my brief time practicing my skills in the field of emergency medicine, I learned the heavy responsibility of caring for a patient. Learning from and working with individuals in emergency medicine, especially paramedics, has allowed me to not only validate my desire to work in EMS, but also to determine why. I want to be a paramedic because I want to serve my community.
I want the responsibility, the difficult decisions, and the diverse opportunities that this job can offer. I appreciate the opportunity to be a part of a team that works for our patients health and advocates for their best interest. It is for the above reasons that I look forward to a future career in emergency medicine.